Update 2nd dec

sorry i haven't written to tell you about my progress, life has been crazy lol. ok well since October i have gained and lost a few times and now im at my lowest weight ive been at for a few years which is nice. my face and neck look different and my fat is really breaking up in places. Im now on medication to control my under active thyroid. still taking the xenical, and oh my goodness 2 weeks ago i experienced the bad side affects. i made samosa`s for hubby and just had to have some.


i fried them in oil so the fat content was threw the roof ! lol well i think you can guess what happened.

anyways i had a lapse but now im back on track. i met my fitness instructor last week and shes very nice. she showed me a few simple and very easy exercises i can do whilst im swimming. basically just a tummy tuck. lifting knees up and down to strengthen lower tummy muscles. after the winter holidays i will attempt a work out at the gym.

well thats about it. im planning to visit my family for winter and i know there will be lots of foods that i will want to eat but gonna try my hardest not to binge on them.

a brand new week to start

ok well the last 3 weeks have been crazy. one day im dieting the next im binging on everything and just cant stop. i was optimistic that when i went back to the doctors i would of lost loads of weight but i only lost a pound, which is still good but i really didnt put my mind to it.

on wed i went to the docs and she gave me the orlistat weight loss pills,and now im on day 2. so far so good, i dont feel any different, im religiously sticking to slimming world , mainly the green days, so that lots of potatoes, rice, pasta, low fat cheese/yogurts etc, whilst having unlimited fruit and veg and upto 20 syns a day.

ive stopped frying food for myself. i miss homemade onion bhaji`s though mmmmmm.

but i gotta change my ways.

so day 2 and things are going well. i went swimming Monday night but not this morning as i over slept but i will go tomorrow night insha allah. oh and also the doctor gave me a prescription for the gym. so that will include swimming and use of the gym. thing is there only one morning for the women so will have to make the most of it on that one day. but i do feel embarrassed to do all that gym exercise, i will wobbly lol
i dont mind swimming as im submerged in water and u can only see my head lol

im really pushing myself this week, as ive made weekly weigh in`s with the nurse at my surgery which is better as gives me something to work too.

i joined a great , super great online forum for weight loss. its called minimins. http://www.minimins.com .check it out.

so much info and loads of support for people loosing weight on a mixture of different programs and medicines.


so yeah. i will post next week my loss insha allah it will be a big one.

this is it, new diet

ok ive put this off for too long. The new diet. it has to be done. i was led in bed this morning after my morning prayer thinking some things got to give. ive gotta try and shift this weight. im OBESE, seriously Obese. yes im happy and not bothered what people think but i cant go on forever like this. 4 years ago i had gall stones and because i couldn't hardly eat anything i lost rather alot of weight and started to look and feel great, but ever since i had the gall bladder removal operation the weight started to creep back on as i started to gain a new love relationship with FOOD.

food is my enemy, its the addiction i cant kick. it would be ok if i could give it up forever but i still had to take some everyday. sometimes i think to myself, "get a grip, why do i let food rule me", its like i cant stop, literally . some days im like any other normal eater, normal meals, good healthy balance, and then other days oh god i cant stop. i want to just keep chewing and tasting things.

These days i feel sick so that makes me stop, but as a teenager i didnt stop and sometimes was physically sick.

from my earliest memories ive found food to be a great source of satisfaction. at the age of 8 i remember being offered a dietician but i refused. maybe if my mother had taken control and said yes we need your help maybe at that age i could of changed everything around.

But no, at 25 im still going strong and piling the pounds. well actually its stopped but it fluctuates between a few pounds but stays around an alarming weight, which i am not going to share, because no women should ever see the scales move round to that number .

i always seem to be on a diet. and in the past they do work as long as i dont get bored after the first month. I tend to stick to slimming world as its very free and easy and feel my body likes their healthy eating approach.

so this is what im gonna stick to. and share all my ups and downs in the process.

I hope to god, i stick to this.

god willing i will be thinner !